Paper faces
Somewhere inside all of us, there is a castle. And throughout the many doors, corridors, halls, hidden rooms, there are references of who we are, either from our past or the perception we have of ourselves in the world.
We are all warriors on a quest and as we learn, and become who we are in this world. We are also educated and conditioned by society. We copy the attitudes of our friends, sometimes our parents, and fold on our personality to fit the social standards so we become someone else then our true self.
In the song I live a lie from Tommy in the Attic, the lyrics say; ‘And the paper faces of yesterday, still echo in the words you long to say’. These paper faces are the people from our past that still echo in the ideas and words we chose and are still a reference to who we think we are. In a certain sense, we are slaves to these ideas, concepts, images from these people that many times are not even in our lives anymore. Worse, some of them we never met (TV shows, commercials, ads, etc..)
Face the monsters
There comes a time, and you’ll know when you're ready, to face the dark. Because it is in great need of a bit of light. And it does not matter what colour the light is to start off. It could be a pale blue, or green, it will grow as soon as you discover the magic of facing fears. In your donjons, where sometimes you torture yourself in anxiety and fear of rejection, there’s one saviour. It is you.
In a certain sense, your monsters saved you. They are still alive because they served a purpose in the situations you were in at one point. They were there to justify the events. So you can blame them for reacting or acting a certain way and or so you can say it was because of them. Thing is, life is life. Everyone has their problems, attitudes and personality. All the power you have is how you react to life and them. And the greatest power you have is, to finally realize that you can let the monsters go… you have that power. Give them their freedom, it will give you yours…
Whatever you fight, you hold on to… EV
This is your castle. You have the key to every door, so what are you waiting for?
Open up the doors
Would you let a wolf live in your basement without your permission? Would you accept that it is always there just waiting on you, that if you step in the wrong direction, open an unwanted door it can jump on you? Your monsters, your hidden away kraken, ghosts and enemies are still living in your castle because you hold them captive. You are the one holding them back. You are the master of your fear. Because it’s your fear. You can do what you want with it.
Spring…
Take the opportunity to start new on a clean slate. It is possible to change your personality. That is in your reach. If you decide that that is what you want, nothing can stop you.
The 16 personalities site https://www.16personalities.com/ is interesting. When I tried it, but I could not believe how accurate it was. As if they knew me personally. I could not believe that there’s just 16 batches or variations of different types of personalities in the world. That being said, I also think we can change, but it all starts with a bit of cleaning. Just like you weed the garden before you plant anything else.
If you start by cleaning a small thing, it will activate new neurons in your brain and that neurone can then be reactivated easily for something else later. You’ll find it can suddenly be fun and exciting to rearrange things. Like a new small beginning. This can become part of your new personality if you want it to.
Decide of your adventure
If you are at the mercy of your past references of who you think you are, then you're not truly living to your potential. By definition, your potential is; what you can become. It’s as if you are an eagle that decided to keep walking instead of trying to learn to fly when the time came…
You can have a certain effect on what’s going on inside of you. It is your castle after all, right? You can start to deconstruct and renovate some rooms that are holding old stuff for too long. Create a new vision of things, a new perspective on yourself and your world. You have the right to change if you want.
It’s up to you to decide on your adventure. Walk inside your castle and shed some lights in the darkness.